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What's your definiton of Self - WARNING! : May contain emo

As the date for the start of my treatment looms (24th of January for those in the dark), I find myself looking at my life thus far and asking the question "Who am I"?

Hearing the words "you have cancer" certainly puts a full stop in the story of life that I had thought to stretch indefinitely. And knowing that there is a full stop ahead, and by knowing I mean really understanding my mortality, has led to a re-evaluation of my concept of self.

Up to this point my life has been consumed by projecting an image of success. Success in the pursuit of material wealth, in business and in my personal and commercial relationships. This image of success became so vital to my concept of self that in order to maintain it, I've done some pretty abhorrent things. Things that have hurt the people I care about and damaged my relationships.

To those I've hurt or subjected to my manipulations of the truth, I apologize and offer in return this promise.

I promise that I'm going to take this opportunity to be BETTER.

I will be a BETTER friend, a BETTER son, a BETTER brother/nephew/cousin, a BETTER man. I'm going to use the time in reflection this illness has given me to rewrite what my concepts of happiness, love, integrity and success are . When I beat this illness, I resolve to start living my life in a way that values my relationships, upholds my integrity and measures my success accordingly, rather than by self deception and manipulation.

I don't have the answers right now. But I promise that I'm gonna find out and when I do, I hope you can give me the opportunity share them with you and to continue to be a part of your life.

Ok so that was a little emo but I wanted to let you know. So that you can hold me accountable and remind me if my actions aren't reflecting what my words say. Hope this didn't come over as too self serving because by no means was it meant to be. Merely my thoughts and my commitment to the future.

This post has been alot about me but I want to leave you with a final thought:

What's your definition of self?

Thanks for taking the time to read this. 

X

J

 

 

 

 

This is not a drill

Goodbye 2010 and Hello 2011. Another year has gone past along with all the lessons, trials and joys that come along with living this crazy thing called life.

Here’s to a new year and all its accompanying bits and bobs.

Its been a bit of struggle to write this post. I guess once you put something on the world wide web its nigh on impossible to take it back.

As some of you may know or not, towards the end of 2010 I found out some news of the “oh shit” kind. My apologies for those of you that have to find out via this blog post, but its been a bit of a process for me to firstly digest and then tell the fam bam. I figure this is the best way to let all of you know what’s going on with lil old me, seeing as you’re all spread over the globe.

SO! By now you’re probably thinking, “HURRY UP AND SPILL JONNO!!” so here it goes.

I have Stage 4 Naso-Pharyngeal Carcinoma. Which basically means I have cancer.

I’m doing okay, thank you very much for asking. I’ve got a great team of doctors and will be starting on my treatment in the next couple of weeks.

I’ll be doing a course of Radiation and Chemo Therapy over 7 weeks and by all accounts its going to be an “interesting” journey.

So now you know.

I guess that’s why I started this blog. To keep you, my nearest and dearest, updated on my progress and also to share my thoughts as I go thru this fight.

My apologies in advance if I’m lagging in replying to any messages etc. As I’m sure you’ll understand, there’s a lot to do :) Please do be patient with me and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can.

Stay tuned for the next exciting episode of Jonno vs Cancer :P

X

J


Testing, testing 1 2 3

Well hello there. 

New to the whole blogging experience but here we go. Didn't realize choosing a blog name and setting it up would cause such equivocation! Well I guess this is a work in progress.

Anyways here I am and here's where I'll be posting regular updates, musings and general wonderments for your kind consideration and information. A JOURNAL DEJOUR if you will (hence the name).

Appreciate your feedback on the look and feel of the blog.

STAY TUNED FOR A VERY IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT

x

J

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